wanna spend my day doing better things.

ah sighhhh life is awesome but effort is required for it to remain awesome

will it ever change

may God be with you, Uncle.

it's not like i meant to do what i did to you

well i'm just lost

B

A piece on "Indecisiveness".

"Indecisiveness", just not being able to decide, one way or another, seems to be a problem that bothers many, many people. It is a tough situation. Life aint easy. It's often full of perplexing situations, dilemmas, seemingly no-win situations, and times where you flat out don't know what the heck to do. End of the day, a decision has to be made.

Being indecisive can be maddening for both the indecisive individual and for the people they associate with who are looking to them for an answer! Indecisive people can obsess about big things, such as buying a house or car, but more often than not, they worry about smaller things such as whether or not they should colour their hair, or even worse, where an (or the most) appropriate location for their daughter to have a moon cake dinner is.

The problem with being indecisive about the smaller things is the amount of time it wastes and the amount of unnecessary worry it causes. However, the problem with being indecisive about the bigger things is that often, the window of opportunity to make a decision is limited and so if someone can’t make a decision for themselves, other people or changing circumstances make the decision for them.

Unfortunately, indecisive people don’t just stop worrying about their decision after they have made it. Instead, they worry that they made the wrong decision! These worries often result in last minute radical and often irrational alterations of attack, which advertently and indeed adversely cause overwhelming inconvenience for associated victims. The question which strikes oddity in most such victims is that, why such considerations and reasons to a change in decision could not be deliberated at the first instance of decision? Consequently, high hopes and precious time (something most busy people do not have a lot of) and even monies (in the case of planned get-aways) become tainted and diminished in importance in the eyes of the ever so self-indulgent and inconsiderate individuals who seem to be boggled in the vast array of contingent possibilities whereby each consideration results in a diversely different effect, or more simply, indecision.

In defense of indecisiveness however, it is worthwhile noting that some of the most intelligent, clear-minded individuals of our world can be described as 'indecisive'. Radical fundamentalists however are rarely indecisive. For example, members of the taliban probably never have, or will have, an identity crisis.

Let's take the assumption that life itself presents us with immensely complex problems. Most of us, however, find ways to avoid facing this fact, and avoid seeing life as a complex and difficult problem. Like most situations, it seems that there are two extremes that most people tend to fall into when faced with this: At one extreme, there are those who make hasty decisions, and are often rash or impulsive; and at the other extreme, there are those who become paralysed and suffer from chronic indecision.

In other words, its rarely easy knowing how to act.

Perhaps there are times when life offers us fairly simple, straightforward, right-verses-wrong choices: we can either A) save the world, or B) torture innocent children. In cases like this, for most sane people, there is no indecision, no dilemma. The right thing to do is obvious and clear-cut.

But life is rarely that clear-cut. More often, in the real world, we're torn by conflicts and dilemmas, having to act without knowing all the factors, having to choose when all the apparent options seem imperfect.

'Indecisiveness' is in essence one form of not knowing 'why you are here'. When you gain a sense of 'why you are here', the question then turns to 'how should I live?', and subsequently, 'what decisions should I make?' - which is essentially asking 'What is morality?'.

Through a logical dissection into the paradigm of 'Indecisiveness', it seem fair that most people suffer from such a 'syndrome'. In other words, some say that life itself is a koan, a seemingly insolvable puzzle that must be solved, and there will always be an element of indecision until we do. In other words, to truly solve indecisiveness at the core, one must solve the core riddle of human nature, the fundamental ambiguity in the human condition, the "problem that causes all other problems. This means taking a journey to understand ego, God, faith, love and all other elements which humans have established to be the staple to our existence.

Until we do that however, we'll just have to do our best in making decisions. The most annoying aspect of indecisiveness is without a doubt the way it affects it's surrounding advocates of the initial decision (AKA Red Hill). Yes, life is a paradox, but let's, as a united force, a community, one which strives to experience luxury and simplicity, make it less of a paradox and live by "when a decision is made, it's made".

These pics are from my latest photoshoot

all about you... my big bell

A little bit silly sometimes, but I guess you're just a mole after all, trying to make your way to the bright shining light above. One day you'll find your way :D Keep digging.

any higher god, lord, prophet, hero...hurry up n show me the reason i am still in this, for my patience is running ever so slight. I need a reminder.

proactive proactive proactive.

sigh youre just so bad at it sometimes...

whats the point of having long hair if i'm never going to style it these days....cos i'm just that lazy.

time to get a haircut... a big haircut.

WADEVS MATE GOT YA BACK

so sorry i couldn't give you a better life

home sweet home

the curious incident of the cranberry

please let me fall asleep tonight

sighduck. studying is for gimps. but gimps win in life.

super generous hugh

I saw your post just now and here is my reply - for whenever you decide to visit my blog.

Well we're doing well in terms of getting you to stop rolling those giant things -->

<--So that maybe one day you will transform from

To a more approachable version of Jam, like so -->

<--So everyone can continue living happily, enjoying such sceneries

And destinations ^

Which lead to happy people like:

take a few steps back before anymore forwards

capo

i understand. We all have to take measures to ensure our long term sustainability.

ill give it as many chances as i can

writing a request for review on my transport infringement... makes me feel oh so lawyerly. BETTER CHECK OUT THE INFRINGEMENTS ACT 2006 ahahaha

my one and only true love

dear sarah,
i cannot express how much i miss u, when i closemy eyes all i can see is ur face, ur smiloe, you... sarah, my baby, will you go out with me? i promise il treat u like my angel, i love u so much, i cant imagine life without u, those long calls atn nite, the good morning texts, i missed having u sleeping next to me when i wake up, did u recieve the flowers and bear i sent u? i hope u like them, i just wana lift your legs up and put them together



and scrunch those balls...

sitting on a chair with a chihuahua im a crazy lil bitch whose such a loser :] and i love my gf, sarah, very very muchhh s2 i hope she'll hav sex with me tonite + strawberry


feel like singing:
im a lil ronnie
short and horny
when i get all steamed up
hear me moan
tip me over... pour cum out
HAHAHAHAH :D
i know ur getting jealous ;D dw theres heaps of me to be shared around

BTW I LOVE U VERYYY VERYY MUCHIEEE <3 sarah

fuk why do i even bother... actually dealing with a retard

cool. ay frkn counting.

what a freaking showerrrrrrr

40 nuggets ahahaha team effort

sometimes it's the smallest, most exteriorly insignificant things that can brighten up an otherwise very ordinary day.

COSSSSSSSS i flipped the page and there I saw me.

burnt out... fuel tank freakin empty

Experience of a life time. I'm glad.

23123

hi run

how dtrm

i ier nao

you like me not too much says nimble bimble bee

oh what?

you have a great scent HONEYZ

yesterday we ate iphones in bed and it was so0o0o great

you love the beginning of lines don't what?

mirror mirror on the ground you are really really REALLLY AWE...FUL!

I THINK THAT I miss the summer a lot

3 months all of a sudden didn't seem tht long

i know, i think thats because
we sttarted school

i want to go to a land far far away

climb the magic far away tree with moonman

or not

the owl n the pussycatb are sooughh much like us

dont you think that there exists an unexplainable connection between us two beings bcos we are like human and avatar yerrrrrrr.

are we actually gna pubklish this

does anyone even read ur blog.

yeah plenty

my profilre views are soaring

........
.......
I'M SURE.

sigh ceebs

well aren't i feeling fucked ahahaha

my brain just works better at night

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet kiwi ur juice is drippin down mahhh chin.

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet kiwi.

sorry but i really hate hypocrites

i wanna live n shit

today I ate a white rabbit that had no ricepaper wrapping

What a contrast. The slow and relaxed summer has disappeared. Now only the assiduous demands of uni repeat day after day. The real test comes...

but it almost did.

the world won't stop and wait for you

it sucks saying goodbye

I know that everything'll be alright

what an experience :)

kissable kissy bon bon

why is it so cold

10 hours in the air... freedom like no other

sigh I don't like dealing with bitches... so i'm not going to

finally got my hands on some law books... time to read and figure this shit out

small things like the shade of my nails creeping mum out. How about the bigger picture.

pRAWN

Yeah sweet Yea sweet ya sweet yerr sweet yah sweet
ma-mate ma-mate ma-mate ma-mate ma-mate
fish ING fish ING fish ING fish INg fish ING
is FUN is FUn is FUN is FUN is FUN
we LURV we LOVE we LARV we LARB we LUB
iamBic iambic i am cool.

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i'm drivingggggggggg safe like a panda eating bamboo

i've grown too old for sleepovers; they are a drainer both physically and mentally

ahhhhh well thank God for friends :D

piano technician here... finally :)

So fucking tired after an eventful and interesting night. Almost a direct comparison between what is, and what could have been, physically orchestrated right in front of our eyes. A gentle reminder to continue to seek a healthy and untainted path, not forgetting the history which brought us to our condition today. Always important to see someone for who they are within, not judging their external behaviour. A good night... with fun and friendly people :)

insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia insomnia

if you're reading, thank you.

crapping myself at this point would be more or less an understatement. I know what I want, and I just really WANT IT. I just hope that whatever the case is, i'll have the maturity to accept it with gratitude. If things don't go as planned, then I guess this year will change dramatically... all within a single click.

3 days until offers

literally on the edge of desire

please.

days like these rare

food and games

time together

I hope we are just waiters

Patience seen on the pier

Waiting

sighdarck.

we are driftin' away

farther everyday

what can you do but laugh.

sucks to see you hurt

I wish I were more understanding

new year

this time last year things were bright... now they aren't.

look on the brighter side? New year's resolution - learn chinese